“Why don’t I commit suicide? Because I am as sick of death as I am of life. I should be cast into a flaming cauldron! Why am I on this earth? I feel the need to cry out, to utter a savage scream that will set the world atremble with dread. I am like a lightning bolt ready to set the world ablaze and swallow it all in the flames of my nothingness. I am the most monstrous being in history, the beast of the apocalypse full of fire and darkness, of aspirations and despair. I am the beast with a contorted grin, contracting down to illusion and dilating toward infinity, both growing and dying, delightfully suspended between hope for nothing and despair of everything, brought up among perfumes and poisons, consumed with love and hatred, killed by lights and shadows. My symbol is the death of light and the flame of death. Sparks die in me only to be reborn as thunder and lightning. Darkness itself glows in me.”

Emil Cioran, On the Heights of Despair

Don't mind me I just turned off my WiFi and wrote a 4 pages long list of the cds that I want to obtain because I'm a physical media maniac and I listened to an album 6 times while writing.

I'm so sorry for Mrs. Schwartz

I want a house full of clocks at every corner
A grandfather clock/ pendulum clock/ cuckoo clock and weird shaped surreal clocks.

“Forever be accursed the star under which I was born, may no sky protect it, let it crumble in space like a dust without honor! And let the traitorous moment that cast me among the creatures be forever erased from the lists of Time”

Emil Cioran, A Short History of Decay

“It is quite true that most people can do nothing well. If so, it matters very little what career they choose, and there is really nothing more to say about it.”

G. H. Hardy, A Mathematician’s Apology

Ladies and gentlemen, I'm terribly sorry for not delivering any academic content lately.

(As if I ever did)

I feel the need to clarify that this channel isn't dedicated to any specific field of knowledge. Instead, it's a personal journal of someone who appreciates and values a wide range of topics.

I call it the home complex

I'm very thrilled to read literature or nonfiction and to explore new tunes or learn to play an instrument.
I'm delighted that I have a quirky console with all of my nostalgia persereved on it.
Watching movies on the wall feels like an outer space experience. Placing an album inside a record player ignites something inexplicable within me. Having colours and crafty tools is such a grace to be grateful for.
And my god, the thought of grabbing a dictionary forever excites me to an unfamiliar degree.

I'm completely occupied, as all the fools on parade cavort and carry on.

Mellon Collie here I come

Invested two hours in listening to a whimsical album and colouring an equestrian barbie

Now dictionary

Listening to Submarine while doing before bed activities and writing down new vocabulary is such an oli thing

God i'm so sorry I can't seem to stop